Last Thoughts – Flash Fiction (a brief look into someone’s mind)

This is a little Flash Fiction about what might be going through the mind of someone who thinks it’s okay to murder innocent people in the name of religion. Maybe they’re not as complex as we think. Maybe they’re not so devout. Maybe they’re just complete fucking idiots.

 

Last Thoughts
“I can do this. I’m right. I have right on my side. Haven’t I? Someone said I did. Anyway, I can’t back out now. What’ll my buddies say? They’re all watching. They said they’ll do it if I go first. Crap. Could murder a bacon sarnie. Ketchup, sausages. Proper fry up. In and out. That’s it. It’ll be over in no time. Maybe I should call Mum in case something goes wrong. But what could go wrong? It’s all planned. It’s the right thing to do. And they know, right? All these guys who did the planning. They know what they’re on about. Justified. Honourable. Honour! Fuck, yeah! That’s me. Now I’ve gotta pee. Come on!! Nut up! I can do this. I have to. Too many people watching. My place in history. History! I’m a fucking hero. People will talk about me. Talk about ME! They’ll put my name in headlines. I’d better call home. Just a quick call. Or she’ll be worried. Don’t want to worry my mum. She’ll understand. Dad won’t. He’s always for talking. Talk, talk, talktalktalk. He says there’s always another way. He’s just a teacher so what does he know. He knows jack about the real world. All he does is read his history books and say there’s no way our way will win. He says there’s a better way to relate. Is he kidding? Relate?! I wanted a car. Did he relate to that? No. I wanted to travel to Syria. Did he relate then? Hell, no. I wanted to go on holiday with my mates. He said no. I wanted a gun. He said no. No. No, no, no! Well, now I say YES! I choose. I say what happens next. I’m in charge. I’m the boss. Me. Me. Me, me, mememememememe….”

News Headlines
“A 21-year-old man was shot dead by police last night after running a van into pedestrians. He killed four people and injured a further nine. The terror threat has been raised to critical meaning an attack is expected imminently.”

 

 

Journey Notes: It’s not hard, I think, to understand what goes through the minds of people who commit these atrocities. I think there are three camps:

  1. Angry people who refuse to accept that their deeply held beliefs are misguided, misinterpretations of a story told a long, long time ago.
  2. Deluded sheep who follow in a doctrine that doesn’t make sense. What it does do is allow them to vent their fury at their own inadequacy and then blame and blow up the world. Cowards really. Weak and deficient.
  3. Inadequate, confused fools who can’t hack the world so join a gang who says it’s just fine to kill folk as long as they shout “Allah” before it.

There’s a special type of hell for these people. We’ve talked about this before… Here are links to So What’s Next, Jihadi John and to The Stalker.

Hearts and minds to the victims of the latest attacks.